How to survive getting your butt kicked daily!

If you are one of those sensitive, creative, insecure, moody types like me then you'll know what I'm on about. This has been a season of great blessing, hard lessons, joy and tough days. The Lord is really pulling me along with Him and it's fantastic, but the old man (the flesh, for religious readers) doesn't like and is trying to revert to old ways and old thinking. So, there's a battle going and there always will be. I used to struggle with depression but since some major healing over a two year period I don't get depressed anymore (honest, I'm officially a cheery wee soul!). However the enemy often tries to convince me that I am, or am about to. It's now more like my passion gets sapped for a while and my body goes tired. That's when the old flesh kicks in and tries to fix it how I used to. That could be through withdrawing, or just plain old sinning. So, today for example, I felt dreadful, everything was an effort. The solution? I just spent about 2 hours "jamming" along with random worship music. I cranked my amp, put iTunes on shuffle, and played with whatever came on. When you play for an audience of one, whether worshiping with a CD, and acoustic guitar or some "worship shredding" a powerful dynamic kicks in. My passion returned, my spirits lifted and I felt "connected" again. Although worship is for God, first and foremost, He has the amazing generosity to bless us and heal us through it.....We can't lose!

So,the moral of the story is, when you feel like you've had your butt kicked, lift your voice (whatever that maybe) and worship anyway. The end result on how you feel isn't that important, but doing what you were designed for will do you more good than you could imagine.